You said we were friends. You the one who suggested we'd be friends because you really see me as a good one. If you thought I was friendship material why would you try to hurt your friend In the worst way a friend could ever be hurt? Did you plan this from the very begining? You act stupid but I dont think you are..its all false pretence..I think you enjoy that kind of thing..playing games with peoples lives. Because if you were really hurt and going through depression, you would do what ever it takes to end this pain..but you didnt. It is not fair. You ask why I did the to you! But it is I who should be asking this to you..
You know I have issues of my own and I am still dealing...but you are too selfish to consider that. Was my sympathy, freindly compassion and attention for you not enough? ( not that you truely deserved it as everything was a lie!..but was it not enough that ontop of the issue im dealing with, that I told you about (my ex getting married and how im trying to deal, you had to throw this on me at the same time! Its all fucked up! Everything is fucked up! You fucked everything up! It didnt have to be that way...but why would you care...its had to be about you..its always about you and your feeling. You couldnt give me a few days to get over my pain? No you couldn't because you can't stand that someone else gets more attention than you! I didnt want the fucking attention anyway!! I just wanted to be miserable in peace! But now I have your fucking problem on top of my own...is that the kind of friend you wanted to be? Why me? Why couldnt you just let me be and never suggested that we be friends?
Everything that you put me through has been hell and ive been dealing with it because I was supporting you as a friend...only to find out that I was supporting a liar!! I was sympathising with a liar! I was giving advice for the wrong reasons!! Because you were making me a fool lying to me!
For your own selfishness you destroyed my reputation at work. Everyone thinks I am a homewrecker! You wife believes it too!! You could have ended this by just being honest in the begining but you couldnt do that! Because then no one will give you attention, and you would have no reason to feel depressed. Honeslty I believe you like this depression thing..that way everyone will always feel sorry for you and give you undeserved attention..how selfish of you to think like that..unless you don't know how to use your brain...and comon! no one is that stupid! But you probably believe we are which is why you dragged this problem on for so long..